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They call me Rosaline
I'm a vision of the past
growing snakes of girlish beauty
I really want to make this last
A time of wrong is on us
The urgency moves fast
A sense of pain floods over you
She's in your mind with a blast
I know why you turn from me
I know why you sink away
I know why you say there's nothing
When there is clearly day
I am not your Juliet
I am not your rising sun
I am not the reason you breathe
I am not the one
(that makes you pine)
We meet again young Romeo
In the moonlight by the pool
Exotic thoughts drew us near
Your touch makes my skin cool
Romantic looks sweep us away
By our hormones we are ruled
After all is said and done
I know I play the fool
I know why you're never here
I know why you never cared
I know why you make me scared
I am not your Juliet
I am not your thornéd rose
I am not the reason you thrive
I am not the one you chose
(to make you cry)
I am not your Juliet
I am not your rising sun
I am not the reason you breathe
I am not the one
(that makes you kill)
Why can't I be your Juliet?
Why can't I scream your name?
I knew you didn't love me
I knew this was a game
Well I don't want to be your Juliet
I don't want your icy moon
I don't need to tell you goodbye
I know I'll see you soon
I am not your Juliet
I am not your rising sun
I am not the poison you breathe
I am not the one
(that makes you die)
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| Court of Camelot |
[19 Jul 2007|11:35pm] |
Aurthor- Jessa
Sir Galahad the pure- Nes
Sir Robin the not quite so brave as sir lancelot- Dev
Sir Lancelot the brave- Mary
Sir Bedevere - Me
gotta love monty python and the holy grail
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[07 Jul 2007|02:48pm] |
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alright so there are many reasons why my vacation was teh weirdest fricken vacation EVER but I'm gunna hit the nail on the head with the two very very big reasons and this entry is a tribute to those reasons. Tragically, Ian and Pat have died. Ian died via suicide and Pat got in a car accident. I didnt know Ian, I've probably only met him once. He is one of my sister Jackie's friends and she had talked to him that night. she said everything seemed fine with him. Pat is my other sister Jayne's best friend Nick's little brother. Him I had met a few more times than Ian, but it's weird. I'll never hear new stories about them and I'll never get to go up to them and tell them I like their shirt or go have dinner with them and my sisters, you know? These people I had met only a few times and always thought I'd know them more later I can't now. I guess the only thing I can do now is get to know the people I've met better. I know Ian could have used that. Or maybe I should just concentrate on the people I know very well and take better care of them, which is what might have saved Pat. I'm sorry you guys had to go that way, it wasn't fare, to you or anyone else. Have fun without me.
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[06 Jun 2007|09:53pm] |
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it's strange, I feel like ever since teh Thai's left all I do is sit on the computer and wait for one of them to email me back. they were just such happy people. everything they did made me happy too, and it's not just because they're asian, it's because they are truely to best people I have ever met in my entire life. their hearts and spirits are so unique and kind to people they've never even met before. It's something that I can say I'm proud to have in my life.
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[28 May 2007|09:57pm] |
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my thai's are leaving ::cries::
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[20 May 2007|08:16pm] |
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Six Flags Stories:
#1. So you know how I have that tape that you plug unto the Ipod and you can listen to it like via stereo and whatnot? well I surprise downloaded a song for Dev and I brought the tape thingy into her car to listen to on the way to work. See sometimes it likes to play backwards, and knowing this, I pressed the flip tape button when that happened. Little did I know, this would send the car into a massive shit fit and it decided it didn't want to play the tape. Not only does Devon's car not want to play the tape, but when we tried to take the tape out, it refused to budge. We've been trying for days to get that thing out. It's not like she needs it out because she doesn't use tapes but I feel bad because now she's stuck with this random ass wire stickin out of her consol. I asked her today if she got it out and she said "no, but My easypass thing fell and like the velcro part came off a little later and fell onto a piece of paper. When I tried to get it off the paper ripped but it's still stuck to it, so my easy pass is just like chillin with your wire."
#2 I was closing a game with Note and Jib and it just so happened to be High Striker which has batman and superman dolls in it. We had to flash them (hang them up and make them look pretty) so I was gettnig curtain hooks to hang them and Jib was setting them up and out of nowhere Note looks back and forth between the batman doll and the curtain hook and just starts cracking up. I was like "what the hell are you laughing about? is it one of your little Thai secrets??" and he goes "no, I think something I do batman" and I was confused by his imperfect english and I said "if you were batman?" and eh said "no, no." and took a curtain hook and stuck it where his uh.. thingy.. would be and he goes "batman is no man no more" and I laughed, of course, because who wouldn't and then he goes "Batman is gay." and I said "no!" and he said "yes! Batman is gay because he has Robin" and I said "no, because Batman has batgirl" and he said "then Batman is bi" and I said "well if batman is bi then Superman is most definately gay" and he said "yes, batman and superman is gay together"
#3 Best gave me some Korean boy band CD's by Tohoshinki. they ROCK! I love it, the only thing is that I dont' know the names of any of the songs and I can't even like look up album lists because they're mixed and so the best song in the world will forever remain "Track 4" on my Ipod.
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[17 May 2007|03:19pm] |
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Jayne's having a girl!!!!
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[03 May 2007|11:51pm] |
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no one ever realizes how much better your life is when you have someone to talk to when you REALLY need it. today is just one of those days that all day you feel something and you go through your routine all day blankly thinking in the back of your mind about whatever it is that doesn't feel right and then magically at almost midnight you feel a much needed relief when soemone you didnt even think to talk to comes out of left field and makes everything bad go away. HERE'S TO THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE LIVING LIFE POSSIBLE!
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[29 Apr 2007|10:34pm] |
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I can't figure out who would be a more frustrating boyfriend: Squall or Balthier. Because Squall is really tight lipped about stuff, though I guess at the end of the game he started to get over that. And Balthier always has some cleaverly worded info pouring out at ya. So would you want someone who won't talk at all or someone that knows everything and makes sure you know it all too?
Is there really much of a difference between Freya and Fran? They're both rodent people. they both kick ass. their names are remarkably similar. I think the only thing missing is that Freya is less revealing than Fran. They even have that "I don't have a home" thing goin on. They both have white hair too. I think we should get all teh animal people from the ff's and let them have a contest to see who is more kick ass.
Lets see, you got Fran, then Kimari, Freya, (there wasn't one in 8 but they had moombas and they were cool so) Moomba, Red XIII, and all before that the only animal people character enough to put on here were dragons and they would go on a seperate liste because dragons probably beat everything else out.
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[04 Apr 2007|03:01pm] |
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I went to Georges house yesterday for lunch and it was really good because I was REALLY hungry and it would have been good even if I wasn't that hungry because it was ham and I love ham. anyway. after that we went to the store and he got sneakers and then we went to the video store and for stranger than fiction and it was an amazing movie. After that we went to Jessa's house and Tom, Jimmy, Hoover, Lauren, and Mary were there and we played apples and apples, which Tom won because Jimmy was reading his mind. Stupid Jimmy. and then we played cranium and Jessa and I TOTALLY kicked everyones asses. No one can beat us at that game.
no one.
In other news I've just goten done eating a triplpe decker peanut butter and jelly sandwhich and I amd quite full from that.
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[27 Mar 2007|09:03pm] |
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okay so the last time I was at Jessa's I was with Dev and we went on youtube to look at stuff and we found a cross of kingdom hearts and invader zim like mini movie things, they are AMAZING! and I went to look for them today adn there were a bagillion clips that I had to search through but I found them and now I shall share them with you because I think you guys deserve to see it. except you.. yeah you know who you are!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7tHAA0IoxFg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZZvo6OOZxw
Enjoy.
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[01 Feb 2007|09:57pm] |
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hello friends. I'm tired. tomorrow will be a good day ebcause we get to go to jessas hosue and watch the return of the king and make another firend, who shall remain nameless, very pretty and another friend who's name will be said right now: TOM COOKE! sit through the entire film. MWUAHAHAHAHAHA. I can't wait to see George this weekend. I saw him today for a little bit. Matt was there too, he's a cool kid, any single chicks lookin for a good time, Matt's your man. But yeah, I know what I'm getting George for his birthday now, he told me he didn't want anything, but I don't care. and I can't wait for Devon and everyone's presents, I don't know what they are but apparently it's naughty hahaha.
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[24 Jan 2007|09:25pm] |
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I stress out every week for things I can't control. And I tell myself, "just get through this week and everything will be fine." but then teh next week comes and stuff piles up. and I have to tell myself again, "just this week, don't worry, everything'll be fine." I don't like living like this. I'm angry at art right now. all I'm gunna say. And I don't want a birthday party any more and Katie won't let me cancel it. And Lana, you're retarded. Did you actually think Devon was going to be nice to you? She's only been saying that she hated you since the day you guys met. and Jackie, one of these days, you'll read these posts and cry because you have no idea what I'm talking about. and Jeff, I think you are probably the most incapable human on the face of the planet simply for the mere fact that you don't know what "J" ends in "enna" means. I only like 2 people right now and you know who you are. To you two: I thank you out of the bottom of my heart for always being there for me, even if I am being an idiot.
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[21 Jan 2007|09:57pm] |
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so at work the last couple days some strange people have been coming in. First there was Colonial times lady (she had on this huge blue dress one) and then there was Bag Lady (she was wearing a couch hat with a black fur coat and those furry cave man boots.) Then there was Cindy Lauper (she had a weird striped shirt and crazy hair). Then today there was Shannon Elizabeth (I swear it looked just like her) and Cruela Devil (once again, looked JUST like her) and then Bag Lady came in again. fun days. And Jackie, if you're reading this, I want my final fantasy VII back.
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[27 Dec 2006|10:23pm] |
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I dont think I've ever had a more hectic winter break in my life. I went to Jayne's thursday night and tried to redo my RRL for Melograna the whole time I was there. I come back home after few christmas party things and George takes me out shopping after I open all my gifts. after we go shopping we went to his house I got more presents and then to Marys and I got more presents and then I slept over there. I got home today and cleaned my room, took a shower, and went out with Dan Mary and Byst, where there MAY have been some illegal hand usage but I'm not sure LMAO. I'm home now as you can tell and all I wanna do is find my wallet and play final fantasy but I have 5 homework / projects to do and EVERY one keeps asking me to hang out and I jsut don't know wher ethe hell I'm going to get teh time from. And I jsut wanna sleep in my own bed for a bit because I love my room.
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| Bad Shit |
[20 Dec 2006|09:29pm] |
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1. mommom's house is all burned up
2. Nikki has abad fever
3. Eli has a mental illness
4. Ian has a hole in his heart
5. Sebastian hasn't writen me back yet
6. Dev's christmas present isn't coming out well
7. I have a bone contusion on my foot
8. I haven't finished shopping yet
9. I haven't done my quotes and shit yet for english
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[13 Dec 2006|06:51pm] |
"she said some days I feel like shit. some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit."
I want you to know it's a little fucked up you telling me that I have to destroy evertyhing I've worked to hard to build. I'm sorry I let you down today, but I refuse to let my life burn, not now, not after all this work. Never. I'll be fine on my own, you'll see. And you'll hardly ever see me again, just you wait, you'll be sorry. I won't show up for christmas or birthdays, I won't even etll you when I graduate. You'll never see my children, you won't be at my wedding. You were gunna the one ones to walk me down the isle, but not now. Hell no, not now.
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[10 Dec 2006|12:25pm] |
this post is dedicated to impressions of people I know with less than 5 words, can you guess who I mean?
...♥Me ^-^
hey.. .. what's up?
WHAT!?! Ô.ó!!
uugghhh
.. OOOOHHH!!!!!
Hawlowcawst suhvivahs
AAARRGH
hump hump
I can take you
No.. you're wrong.
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[07 Dec 2006|08:10pm] |
A presence felt above all else, but no visions do you see. A breathing felt upon my shoulder, but no voice can be heard. Does it scare you when you can not see what others call reality? Are you bothered when you can not tell if you're surrounded by light or darkness. They mix together and combine to be one giant acidic nightmare. You see movement and life within these colors but you can't get out of them. They're suffocating you, can you feel it?
Breathe. Breathe. You can't.
Wait, are they really moving, these shadowy figures, or are your eyes playing tricks on you? You'er not sure. You can't tell. That creeping feeling up your spine is getting higher isn't it? I'ts grabbing at you now. Clawing, stabbing, digging away at your heart. Hurts doesn't it? But what hurts even more is that you still have no idea what it is that tugging at you like this, and whether it's real or not.
Oh, but I forget, you are no stranger to this feeling. You've had it before. You know what it is, but you don't know where to find the cure. So you just go along and pretend that everything is okay. But it's not, is it? The faces all know they're winning. They know you're letting them win. They know why too. See they know everything. You could make them disappear if you wanted to, you know. They know that too. They're just as scared as you are sometimes. They want you to give in to them but they feel that you should have done so already. So what's holding you back? What can you fill tat oid with to make everything seem real again? Ask the faces, I'm sure they'd be able to tell you.
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